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A Year of Changes and a New Blog

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It’s been quite some time since I’ve written here. And during that time, I have gone through quite a few changes. To boot, they include: 

Graduating law school and taking the NY Bar Exam 

 Coming to grips with the fact that my desire to eat healthfully bordered on obsession

 Resurfacing vitiligo on my neck

Travel

Starting a new career path

My vitiligo began to return around this time last year. At that point in time, my diet was as “clean” as could be. Completely vegan, very little (if any) grains or nuts, and nothing that couldn’t be made in my own kitchen. Nevertheless, my skin was getting worse. As a result, I began to cut more and more out of my diet. Meanwhile, I hadn’t gotten a period for about 6 months, I was getting colds for the first time in years, and I generally felt very low in energy.

The solution to getting my period back was simple – I needed to eat what I felt like eating. This didn’t necessarily mean I had to stop being vegan, but it meant that I needed to stop obsessing about eating cleanly. I learned that eating cleanly was a way for me to feel in control of one aspect of my life. Even though I was unsure about my career and my personal life, I knew how to eat properly, and that gave me a sense of false security. As a result, the thought of eating something that wasn’t on my list of approved foods would cause mental havoc. Now, if there is nothing around for me to eat other than French fries and I’m starving, I will eat the French fries and I won’t kill myself over it. Instead, I will meditate afterwards, take a deep breath, and trust that my body will be able to balance itself out when I feed it nourishing greens the next day.

I’ve slowly learned that emotional well-being is as important, if not more important, than food. For me, this meant taking a step back from writing in legallyvegan (because writing about food only fueled my obsession). It also meant I needed to stop trying to force myself to fit into the world of big law. I then happened to fall in love with my soon-to-begin position as a public defender. I began meditating daily. I traveled to Austria, Ireland, Morocco, and Costa Rica, and learned to let go of the various expectations I had set for myself in health, love, and my career.

If I’m being truly honest with my readers, I have not entirely stayed true to being vegan. I have eaten eggs and fish three times within the past 5 months. I’m no doctor, so I can’t speak as to whether or not this is the healthiest choice, but I have chosen it temporarily because it has freed me from obsessing over food, and the freedom from obsession has made me healthier.

I hate to admit this because I still advocate veganism. It is the moral choice. If we can avoid causing suffering to animals, we should. Even if we are “meant” to eat meat, we are also “meant” to live in caves, to walk around naked, etc., yet we don’t do any of these things. If we can practice compassion, we should. So in making this confession, I do not do so to say that you should stop being vegan. If you can be vegan, you should be. I admit weakness here, and I am still attempting to resolve the cognitive dissonance between my actions and beliefs.

For those of you who have emailed, I apologize for not being more responsive. The truth is I didn’t feel right giving advice about food when I was still figuring things out on my own. I debated canceling my blog altogether, and also debated turning it into a “mostly vegan” blog, and have decided against both. Ultimately, my blog has been about using food to enhance health. However, I’ve since learned that health is about so much more than food – it’s about being in touch with all our physical, mental, and- if you’re into it- spiritual selves.  So I plan to write about health in all its aspects – not just food – and I invite my readers to focus on health in this holistic manner as well. I will be writing on meditation, food, sleep, and everything else that plays a role in health.

For now, I’ll be trying to figure out how to change my domain name and will be looking for suggestions. At the moment, I’m between “legallyliving” and “scalesofbalance,” which is a play on the legal “scales of justice.” Thoughts?

Thank you to those who have continued to follow and read, despite my inactivity I truly appreciate your comments!.<3